9 to 5 Freedom!!!!!

9 Months ago, I decided to go back to work.  We didn’t need the money, but the offer came up to go back to a company I had worked with before and I just had the strongest feeling that God wanted me there.  I didn’t know why, but I wasn’t going to question him.

So I went back on a contract basis for 3 months with the intention of staying longer.  We decided to put all my paychecks in savings and try to pay off debt and allow me to get insurance.

I thought God brought me back to whip the office into shape, but without authority, that wasn’t going to work.  Things in the office were starting to get crazy and we were about to start this huge project and I’m just sitting there thinking, I don’t think I am going to be able to handle this.  I just had to pray about it and trust that God had brought me here for a reason.

3 Months later, we extended my contract until March 2015, “the end of the project”, we knew I would be there past the 3 month mark, but I did get a small raise.  There are 5 groups to this project and groups 3 and 4 are the biggest.  The first group had about 60 people, the second group had about 200 people, groups 3 and 4 had about 400 people each, and the last group had about 200 people.  That’s 1,260 people, give or take that I was in charge of.  Each person required about an hours worth of work on my part and I had 9 months to do all that I needed to do.  There was no way.

We asked for help several times, but was denied and it wasn’t until February 2015, when the boss saw how far behind I was and after I told him we were officially moving, that he finally brought someone in.  I can’t tell you how thrilled I was, because I was drowning and there was no light at the end.  I was moody, my depression was coming back, I was starting to resent my coworkers, and annoying my husband with the amount of complaining I was doing.  I also gave up a lot.  I gave up sleep, my zen, all that i had worked for to get my zen, my bible study, my dogs freedom, and a possible baby (I had a very early miscarriage, and although I can’t prove that this job caused it, I can say that all the stress I was under, didn’t help.)

The girl that was to relieve me from part of my job, was very impressive.  She was twice as fast as me, I will humbly admit that.  She caught on so fast and was doing so well that I knew she would be the perfect replacement for my position after we left.  The project is being extended so they will need someone after my contract is up.

I wanted to quit every week but didn’t want to give up on God.  I thought I knew why he had brought me here, but I was wrong.  I know now, he brought me here so we could save a nest egg.  So we could finally move to Kansas. Without it I’d (I’d say we but the hubs is doing this for me) be stuck here.  Now I can finally follow my dream of reconnecting with my family.

So, here I am, March is here and I am just so excited that this is my last month and I can see the light and I’m no longer drowning, I’m able to tread at this moment.  This is now catch up time, let’s get all caught up before I leave everyone.  I was still very busy, but I know the end of the crazy is near and that is an awesome feeling.

4 Weeks left, then 3 weeks, then 2 weeks, and finally my last week is here and I am so stinking excited!  I got to come in later on a couple of days and got to leave early on my last day, which was great because the company took me out to lunch and the girls I work with gave me some very sweet and thoughtful gifts.

Yesterday was my last day….. I am now free!  Free to sleep in, to take lunch when ever I want, to dress how I like, to not brush my hair.  Hahaha

Just free….. *sigh of relief

Stress is starting to melt away and I can feel my blood pressure lowering.  Now I can get my life back.

Admitting Defeat…

There comes a time when you just have to admit to defeat.  I have one week and two days until I leave and I am not any further than the 6 boxes we packed a week or two ago.

Friday is my last day of work, so this should give me a week to get some packing done.  Hopefully I’ll make a good dent.

I feel so bad that the hubs will probably have to do most of the packing.  It’s not what I wanted.  You have read what my goal was and that I didn’t want him to have to do all of it.  The sad thing, is when I was talking to the hubs about packing, I had told him that I probably won’t be able to get it all done next week and he replied with “Ya, I know.”  I asked if he knew that I wasn’t going to be able to do it or that he was going to have to do most of it and he shook his head yes and said “Its fine.”

It’s so sad, that he knew he was going to have to do it.  I’m going to try my best to pack a bunch of stuff next week.  I need to pack for my stay in Kansas and pack the dog’s stuff, since they are coming with me.  I was going to pack all of my stuff and take it with me, but that would kill my dad to have to store all my boxes at their house for a month and a half until we sign our lease.  So I decided to just pack for the month.  It’s still going to be a lot, but it will be doable.

That may be all that I get done.  Hahahaha   So sad…

Packing Blows!!!!

Here I am 2 weeks away from leaving and we have packed 6 boxed and it doesn’t even look like we have touched anything!  How did I collect so much crap?!!  This is crazy!  My last blog was about how much I like to decorate and 3 of those 6 boxed are just decor!  Worst part is I have a ton more!

I initially wanted to pack what we were moving and then price and pack garage sale stuff and now I’m thinking, screw that I’m just packing what I want to take.  Hahaha.  I might even start a new trend of a house sell.  I’m thinking, instead of dragging it all outside, just leave it inside and let people come in an pick what they want.

I probably wont do that, but it sounds a heck of a whole lot easier.

I don’t know how I am going to do this…. truly.  This is such a down moment in this process.  It’s overwhelming and dirty and I feel like even cutting way down on our junk that I’m still going to be cluttering up our new place.  There isn’t a lot of storage in the new place.  Really there is only 2 closets in the whole townhouse and then some storage space in the basement.  We will probably need to buy some shelving, but I just don’t see where we are going to put everything.

We might have to have another garage sale after we move, with everything we can’t fit.

I need to pray about this tonight and hope we can get most everything packed.  Here is to hoping I can get a lot of this done before time runs out…..

I Just Want to Decorate… Losing Patience

I LOVE moving!!!! I love change, especially big change!  If we didn’t have to pack and unpack and it wasn’t so expensive, I’d probably want to move every year.  I like experiencing new floor plans and seeing where all of our decorations would go in the new place.  I also like redecorating, because I get so bored looking at the same thing all the time.  So once every couple of years my husband allows me to redecorate if I wish to.  It’s cheaper than moving.

Usually it takes me a bit to decide on which direction I want to go.  My style changes the older I get.  Thinking back to all the styles I have liked, you would think I were completely different people.  Hahaha.

Now days I’m in love with the shabby chic antique look with a mix of rustic country.

When I redecorate, I don’t just go out and buy everything at once.  It takes me time to collect pieces that I think would go together.  So by time the look is together, its time to start again, but since it takes me so long, I have the old style up for a while.

My husband is the opposite of me, as he does not like change.  So the fact the my redecorating is so slow, it doesn’t bother him to see change because it is gradual.

Now that you know that I like redecorating a lot, you should also know that I don’t have patience.  With our move to Kansas coming soon ( a month and a half away), I am already looking at how I want to decorate it.  Tonight I was looking at rugs and every rug I showed the hubs, I got the eh look.  They weren’t your traditional looking rugs so I can see why he wouldn’t like them, but I really like them.  They add a little flair to our decor.

So moving on from rugs, I’m now all in on looking at decor for the new place.  This will drive me crazy since it’s so far away.  It’s really going to test my lack of patience.

The hubs keeps telling me I need to wait until we get there because we don’t really know what space we have or if we will even need any other decorations with all that we have.  Well, there is no way I can not look at decor, but I think it is actually a smart idea to go ahead and wait.  😦  I think looking at different styles and items will help give me ideas.  The time between now and then, I think will also help me know which items I really want.  Anything that sticks in my head for more than a couple of weeks, usually becomes a permanent fixture in our home.

I can’t wait!  This makes me want to get rid of more in order to make room for more.  Let’s see how well I do with holding off on getting new decor.  Hopefully time doesn’t take too long and I can design a wonderful home for us.

3/11/15 – Procrastination…. : /

My goal was to pack a box or two everyday this month and then the packing wouldn’t be so bad….

Well….

Let’s just say I’m about as far as I was this time last week.  I don’t know what it is about packing.  I feel the same about cleaning as I do the packing.  It’s all overwhelming.  I think if I didn’t want it so organized, I could pack a lot faster, but because I want it a certain way its taking longer and a bit overwhelming.

I just want it to be easy, but it’s not.  Plus, because I don’t do a lot of dusting, I am having to clean as I pack, which gets my allergies going, which then makes me stop.  So I don’t get far.

I think this is going to be a lot longer process than I’m thinking. I wanted to do this for my husband, but I may need his help after all.  He has a way of keeping me strait on one path, where I tend to get bored or tired and stop.  He can keep me on track.

I can’t believe we are already about half way done with this month and I’m not that far along.  I need to get going. I have decided to take up all of my clothes and beauty stuff.  I also need to take all my meds (natural supplements), but I can’t pack it till it gets closer to time of me going up.  Same with our other stuff; the hubs is staying here next month, while I am up North, so I’d hate to pack what he may need to use.

So what do I pack?  Decor? The hubs just said to pack it all cause he can eat out… I’m thinking man, that’s going to be pricey, but he kinda does it now anyways, minus dinner.  Hahaha

I just need to do one box at a time and try my best to stay on track, with or without my hubs help.

Sunday, March 8th, 2015

So if you read my Back History, you would have seen where I fell down the stairs in college.  This did a lot of damage to my lower back that I am still dealing with (9 years later). So when ever the weather changes or there is a front coming through, I can feel it several days prior and it really causes a lot of pain and discomfort.

Well, because of all the cold fronts that have come through this year, it has been hard for my back and body to recover and so most days I don’t do much; I don’t want to mess it up and have to do tons of physical therapy again.

This causes issues when trying to pack.  In the past, every time we have moved, my husband had to do most of the packing and moving because of my back being out.  This time, since we are moving where I want to go, I didn’t think it was fair for him to have to do all the work solo again.

My goal was to pack most of our stuff this month, since I won’t be here next month, but tonight when I had planned to pack some boxes, my back started hurting and I gave in to defeat.

I try not to complain a lot about my back, but it is definitely becoming a challenge when I am trying to pack.

Aside from my back issues, I am also fighting hoarder issues.  I love my stuff and I am the type of person that has a hard time throwing something away that I may be able to use later.  Except I have stuff that I have not touched for several years and doubt I will touch it anytime soon.  So it would make sense to clean house.  Also, after seeing our new place and how they decorated it has made me want to de-clutter and live a more minimalist life.

Yesterday, I was packing a couple of boxes and taking decorations off the wall and all of a sudden I got very overwhelmed.  I had boxes everywhere and stuff everywhere and felt like the walls were closing in.  So much stuff. I want to be as organized as possible with what I am putting into boxes.  I don’t want to put decor with games, I want to do a box for games and boxes for decor.  A little OCD with that.

I stood there spinning in place, thinking oh my, how am I going to be able to do all this by myself.  Just then, my husband came home and saved me from packing.  Hahahaha.  I gave up for the day and got 1 box of games packed. Not too far.  All together I have packed 1 box of garage sale dishes and the box of games.  I don’t feel like I will meet this goal.

This brought something up that I think is funny/weird…. I am somewhat of a germaphobe, but in a really weird way.  I can’t do bodily fluids very well, I don’t like doing dishes because touching “dirty” food grosses me out (plus I have a hard time handling hot water), I don’t like cleaning because dust stirs up and gets my allergies going, and I don’t like dusting, because of what dust is made of.  I would rather see a mess and ignore it than clean it up.  Not because of laziness, but because it’s dirty and it grosses me out to touch it.  The feeling of dirt/dust on my hands makes me want to gag, but thats another issue (textilephobia).

This is going to be a process for sure and I hope I can get through it without my husband having to do all the work.  He works hard to provide for us and to make me happy, if I can do this one thing for him, I know it will make a big difference for him in making this transition easier.

The Start of Our New Adventure

So I am originally from Kansas, but at a young age we moved to Texas for my fathers work and so I grew up here.  To all those who know me, know that I have always wanted to go back to Kansas.  After, I got married 6 years ago, every year I begged my husband to move to Kansas so we could be next to my family.  Every year I was told no and so my dream stayed a dream and we stayed here in Texas.

Well around this last Thanksgiving, I finally started to see my dream come to light when we started to talk about moving up and I can’t tell you how excited my mother and I were about this.  So we did our best to convince him how beneficial it would be and it wasn’t until we received news that his sister and her family were moving away, that he finally gave the ok to move!

I can’t express my excitement.  We started looking at places, trying to decide if we wanted to rent or buy when we go up… we had until June of this year to decide, so we were coming up with pros and cons and looking at what we wanted in a house.

We finally decided to rent and save up money, as well as, pay off debt and then we will buy.  Now the question is what can we rent in our price range?  I’d rather be pocket rich and house poor than house rich and pocket poor.  So I want to make sure we find something in our desired area but cheap.  Not squanders cheap but I’m not going to overpay because there is a tennis court either.

After months of looking online at 1000’s of houses and town homes, we finally narrowed it down to 3 different properties.  We figured quickly that we wouldn’t be able rent a house, so town home it is, which I am kinda excited about.  We have lived in apartments and in a house but never a town home.

The first property was pretty perfect. It was huge and had a basement and 2 car garage, but the stairway was very narrow and it would be a pain to get furniture upstairs, plus the pet deposit and pet rent was ridiculous.  It would have cost more than the regular rent.

The second property  was nice.  It had a basement as well, but no garage.  We were going to choose it, but when I called to confirm pricing a week after my mother went to see it, the price had jumped pretty high.  Cross that one off the list.

The third and final property was a good size, but we hadn’t seen any pictures online and it was a one bedroom (we were wanting a 2-3 bedroom), so we weren’t too sure.  Mom said it was cute and so I had her send pictures and OMG!!!!! It is adorable and I am so stinking excited to move now (more than before)!

So we sent in an application and were approved and now it is official, we are moving the weekend of May 16th!!!!!!

Let the packing begin!  This place is so cute that it keeps me from wanting to clutter it up with a bunch of crap.  Do you know what that means?  GARAGE SALE!!!!!! (I’m not normal.  I LOVE garage sales, especially when doing them with my mom)

So my plan for this month (March) is to pack what we are taking and then price and pack our garage sale stuff, to get it out of the way.

Then in April I will go up to Kansas and focus on the business my mother and I are starting.  It’s going to be decorative pillows and probably a bunch of other stuff.

Finally, we will come back in May for a going away party, the garage sale, and then packing up and doing the final move!

I can’t believe its finally happening…. I am just counting down the days until we get out of here!

Hello world!

What is This Blog About?

There is a lot to look forward to in the future and I am having a hard time being patient, but in all journeys there are ups and downs.

Things you have to deal with on a daily basis, things you have to plan and prepare for, finances, going through change and handling it within yourself as well as with your loved ones.

Well… This is my journey and I hope you like it or maybe even help you in a future journey of your own.

HAPPY READING!!!!